There was a loud bang, the kicking down of a door, and the frightened cry of "Jesus! Jesus! Jesus!" It was the voice of the pastor that had just checked into the hotel that morning with his wife and three children, one of whom was a toddler. The time was about 10:55 p.m. I had just returned from a pepper soup joint with my friends, Segun Adegoroye who lives in Gravesend, just outside London, Jide Ogundana, a Lagos-based lawyer and Gbolagade Busari, a House of Representatives candidate in Oyo State. All of us had been mates at the University of Ibadan and had lived on the same floor in Mellamby Hall. It was a good reunion as most of the others had not seen each other for over twenty years, while I maintained contact with all of them.

We parted ways at about 10:30 p.m. I escorted Segun and Jide to their hotel since they were not very familiar with the area. After exchanging a few banters, I headed for my own hotel. I kicked off my shoes, undressed and got into the tub for a shower. That was when I heard the loud bang coming from downstairs. I stood still for a moment, to enable me decipher the cacophony of voices, but I could not make out anything. My first instinct was whether something was wrong with the pastor's child. Then I thought maybe people were fighting downstairs. Or could it be armed robbers? I quickly discarded the armed robbery thought. The hotel had four or five stoutly built employees on duty that night. It could not have been armed robbers. I got out of the tub, got dressed and headed out to help the pastor. I was sure his toddler, who did not look very well when they arrived in the morning, was in some form of trouble.

I opened my door, stepped into the hall and called out to "Ololo" – an employee of the hotel, asking him what the matter was. Before he could answer, a hefty guy, about my size, ran up the stairs carrying a pistol. He calmly introduced himself to me in Yoruba: "We are armed robbers and we have come to collect our sallah gift. Let's go to your room."

It was December 29, 2006. Sallah was the 30^th. Close on the hefty guy's heels were two others – one carrying a hunting rifle and the other a sawed-off shotgun. Any idea of heroism that I might have had quickly evaporated. My famous Yoruba proverb quickly took over my head: "sagenti moridele san ju genera akusogun" - it is better to be a surviving sergeant than a dead general.

I took them to my room where they took their time to ransack the whole place. They took my wedding band, my phone, my blackberry and my laptop. That laptop contained materials that took me years to complete and pictures to which I have sentimental attachment. Then they asked for money. I told them it was in my SUV downstairs. I had been buying building materials for over a week and had people working at our site through the holidays. They had to be paid and more materials had to be bought before the banks opened again for business. Because Christmas, Sallah and New Year celebrations all fell within a week, banks were closed for just as long. So, I had some cash stashed away in my SUV. With all kinds of guns arrayed against me and slaps and punches raining on my eyes – just my eyes only, I took them to my vehicle and handed them a plastic bag containing N620, 000.

Now they wanted the key to the vehicle. I begged them to allow me to retrieve my wallet which was in the glove compartment. My wallet contained everything that anyone living abroad keeps in his/her wallet – I.D. cards, credit cards and bank cards. After searching it for "foreign money" (which was there but they did not find because they could not tell the Euro from ordinary papers) they threw it at me.

As they were about to lead me back to one of the rooms where they kept all guests and staff of the hotel at gunpoint, one of them called me back to remove whatever security device I had on the SUV. I told him that I did not set it. They did not believe me. The slaps resumed. I had bought the SUV brand new in the US in 2000 and had never set the immobilizer. I did not even know that it had one! But last year, we shipped that SUV to Nigeria and replaced it here with a different model, but same manufacturer. While thumbing through the owner's manual of the new one, I came across the immobilizer instructions and read it. So, when the robbers were going to kill me if I did not "remove the security," I went back to the vehicle praying that since it was the same manufacturer, the security systems would be the same. And they were. I then set it. I set it for three minutes of operation. Then I told the robbers that I had "removed the security."

After a couple more slaps and punches, I was led to the room that the rest of the guests were kept and ordered to lie down. When I took too long because the whole floor and bed were already filled with people lying down, I was hit in the head with a dining plate that broke into pieces, and ordered to lie on top of a child – I believe one of the children of the pastor, probably 9 or 10 years old girl. They locked us up and left.

After about three minutes of complete silence in the hotel, I reasoned that they might have left and asked the men in the room to follow me downstairs to see. None responded. Everybody was either afraid or still in shock. I got up and went downstairs. There were no signs of them. I walked all the way to the gate and found my SUV in the ditch right in front of the gate. Apparently, the three minutes had elapsed while they maneuvered the vehicle inside the parking lot. The breaking and steering mechanisms failed. The security system had worked!

Although I pulled my vehicle out of the hole, I could not drive it into the hotel compound as my eyes suddenly went shut. I could not open them anymore. I gave the key to Demola and talked him through driving an automatic gear vehicle. I was led to my room where I laid in bed trying but failing to sleep for the rest of the night. Try this at home when you get a chance. Blindfold yourself for 24 hours and try to do the things you normally do – like use the bathroom, take a shower, walk around the room, walk up and down the stairs, get water from the refrigerator, shave, watch the television and get dressed. Try doing those things unassisted and you will have a new-found respect for the blind and a new-found appreciation for your eyes. I really thought I was going to lose my sight. I had worn glasses since 1972. But in April 2006, I underwent laser surgery here in Germany to correct my myopia (shortsightedness). The surgery was very successful as my vision became better than 20-20 and I no longer had to wear glasses. But my eyes were still tender, not fully healed and definitely should not have been subjected to such abuse. I thought I would go blind.

During the robbery, I was surprised to see that I was not afraid at all. I guess my job has conditioned me to be like this. In the course of doing my job I routinely find myself in more extremely dangerous situations. I was not scared of the armed robbers. But I was angry. I was very angry that I stayed in that hotel unarmed. I pictured the late Bola Ige, a whole attorney general of Nigeria who was killed in his bedroom by assassins. I was not afraid of dying. I am not afraid of death. If I did, I would be in a different line of work today. But I do not want to die like a wimp, with my hands in the air while some hoodlum pumps hot lead into my chest just because he wants something belonging to me. It is an unfair way to go. I want to die fighting, taking along with me to meet the Almighty some (if not all) of my attackers.

So, when my eyes healed and I returned to Ibadan, I went to see the Divisional Police Officer (DPO) of my residential area and narrated my ordeal to him. I told him that I wanted a gun and a license to own it. I wanted to stay within the law. He showed me the kinds of guns for which the police commissioner could issue a license. I was astounded. The police commissioner could only authorize a "pump action" rifle, which is nothing more than a glorified hunting rifle – what Americans call shotgun. They take seven to eight cartridges (rounds) which are loaded individually, and require a "pumping" of the charger each time you want to fire a round (for the manual), and before you fire any round (for the semi-automatic). If you expend your seven or eight rounds (bullets, in layman's language), or you have a jam in the barrel and your attackers are still coming at you, you are in trouble. The weapon is about 4 feet long, difficult to conceal and difficult to aim because the rounds come out in a blasting with their pellets spreading to cover more areas than a single bullet could. No wonder it is a hunting rifle. It gives hunters better opportunities to kill their animals.

The weapon that I wanted was a handgun, a pistol, something that is easily concealable, easy and quick to re-load (a magazine usually contains about 20 rounds and you can drop an empty magazine and re-load a full one in 1/10^th of a second) - the kind that some of my attackers held to my face. But the DPO explained to me that only the president, on the advice of the Inspector-General of Police signed off on those. Only dignitaries, envoys, retired army generals and senior police officers were allowed those. I did not believe him. I checked with another senior police officer friend. The answer was the same. If true, how then did those armed robbers get the weapons that they had? I am not naïve. I know the probable answers to that question. It is either they stole them, or bought them at the black market, or smuggled them into the country, or rented them from people licensed to own them. I am sure that President Obasanjo did not issue a gun license to those people who robbed me of even my cologne.

I thought hard and deep. Should I remain a law-abiding citizen by signing for a shotgun that can not protect me, and which license and gun cost about N220, 000, or should I do the RIGHT thing by buying a 9mm handgun at the black market for N20, 000, no license, but guaranteed to give me a fighting chance should armed robbers come at me in the future? I re-lived the robbery in my head over and over. What if I had stayed in the hotel with my wife and daughters? What if the robbers had raped my wife or daughters in my presence? What if I had been killed? We have just lost Godwin Agbroko, a former colleague of mine (in my active journalism days at The Guardian) and Chairman ThisDay Editorial Board, to suspected armed robbers. I remembered the gun debates in the US. The criminals have more sophisticated weapons than the law-abiding citizens and law-enforcement officers. I tried to understand that no responsible government could arm its entire citizenry.

However, when a society lacks rudimentary law-enforcement equipment - like enough motivated police officers, enough bullet-resistant vests, enough functioning patrol vehicles, enough fuel for those vehicles, at least one automatic rifle per police officer on duty, at least one radio (walkie-talkie) per officer on duty and basic finger-printing and reading equipment - all citizens able to operate a gun should get one for self-defense. If you are unable to secure a license for the kind that you want, do what you have to do. It is now my belief that it is easier to face an "illegal possession of firearms" charge than be the one freezing at the mortuary while your grief-stricken family, beset by your violent loss, strains to bury you. So, before I left Nigeria on January 15, I made sure that I was ready for the next armed robbery attack. It will probably cost me my life, but I will not be so humiliated ever again.

I have heard stories of people who traveled home from overseas, got attacked by armed robbers, returned overseas and refused to go back to Nigeria ever again, as if there were no worse violent crimes in the US or Europe. I can not imagine life without Nigeria. On New Year day, a handful of my friends -old friends from secondary school days - and I got together in my compound to enjoy a sumptuous feast of bush meat on a hot grill, with unadulterated, refrigerated palm wine that was supplied on New Year eve. What is the point of working very hard in Europe, America, Canada (or whatever boondocks in which you are slaving) if you can not savor moments like that?